LOST IN THE WORLD.

my most difficult subject yet! she only allowed me one single...

Fri, 24 May 2013 17:43:32 -0400

my most difficult subject yet! she only allowed me one single frame.

after being in new york city for 3 hours

Wed, 22 May 2013 13:01:00 -0400

this is everything i feel:

-overwhelmed. this usually has a negative connotation but it’s not necessarily bad. not necessarily good but not necessarily bad. just taking in the sights/smells/sounds and processing.

-driven. there’s a crazy energy here like nowhere else. people are constantly moving, shit is happening, people are going places and doing things. WITH PURPOSE. no one is lazily meandering the streets unless they’re homeless, but even they are still on that hustle. it’s all about the hustle.

-WHATEVER YOU WANT IN LIFE IS AVAILABLE HERE FOR THE TAKING. GO OUT AND FUCKING GET IT.

-exhausted. why did i ever think a layover on a red eye would be a good idea? le sigh.

-introspective. i see where i came from and where i’m at now, and i feel good about who i’m becoming and where i’m going. i like myself and am happy spending a lot of time by myself learning how to become a better me. and i think i’ve been achieving good things.

-disappointed in some ways, but more just paying my respects out of respect to things that have changed as i have. this is just the way life works and part of settling into who i am.

-utterly and stupidly inspired. the light out here is fucking AMAZING. it’s different every day, it’s never the same. it allows for so much creativity in one’s work. i took a shitty iphone photo today against a metal grating with some shitty graffiti. but the lighting is so soft and diffused from all the clouds and the fog, but with just a bit of a contrast because the fog isn’t dense - it just exists enough to make this perfect light in the morning. and it’s gonna be like this all day. beautiful, soft, bouncy, gorgeous light that you can shoot in all day. no terrible, harsh, ugly shadows. even just a little bit of fill flash in this - you are GOLDEN.

-revived. i never, ever, ever, EVER saw new york city as this beautiful in my fucking life. i’ve traveled around to foreign countries for a summer, and even after that, i wasn’t as blown away that time as i am now. even after college, yeah i appreciated new york, but not like this. not after living in this city and experiencing even just the tiniest bit of the richness of life that exists here. the cultures you bob and wave through every day just on your regular errands run. the fine dining that lines the streets here, even if it is $2. you tell me where else you can get this thing, this good, for $2!!! and sitting on the train and reading the times while looking around me for fashion tips and style ideas.

-a strong desire to work hard and have a good work ethic. i want to surround myself with people who are following what they love and are working their asses off for it. i want to be with my peers who are pursuing their dreams and careers and work together to all be mutually beneficial to each other. i love the idea of the timeshare i learned in las vegas - donate an hour, someone else donates you an hour. that aside, out here you have to fight for what you want. that one open spot on the subway, the last chocolate babka, the position at that agency, that bill at that venue, that person just to respond to my EMAILS. yes, it’s impersonal and can come across as rude, but that being said, people are busy, they have shit to do, and time is money. don’t waste peoples’ time. more than likely, though, they will be able to differentiate better than you can ever foresee.

-content with where i’m at in life right now. i know i have a long, long way to go until i feel i am the best person i can be. but i’m learning and have learned and will continue to learn so much. i see it in me, the growth, and how much i have changed and grown - all for the good! - in such a short span of time. it has been a total of three months since i’ve last stepped foot in this city, and i feel like a very, very different person. all for the good.

-grateful. for all if the friends i have who have been so supportive of me in this (Nick Brandreth - i see you). for those who have been a part of my life and growth for one of the most chaotic segments of it. in the smallest of ways. no effort is too small, as the effort alone speaks volumes about you, and about me.

-and last but not least, still happy/excited/in love with my wonderful dreamboat of a boyfriend. he makes my heart giddy. lots of tumblr blog shout out love to my baybay jonny rude. thanks for the pickles at the airport! you sure know the way to my heart <3

thanks, guys. i’ll probably post another around/before/after leave time and see how i feel then. maybe the humidity will get to my brain and i will turn into a pile of sweat and frizzy hair on the floor in the corner. stay tuned.

never gets old.

Wed, 22 May 2013 11:26:08 -0400

never gets old.

I’m coming for that #ass.

Mon, 20 May 2013 21:30:07 -0400

I’m coming for that #ass.

being #young. #yolo

Thu, 16 May 2013 04:45:45 -0400

being #young. #yolo

being young.

Thu, 16 May 2013 04:38:35 -0400

being young.

making progress.

Sat, 11 May 2013 08:17:00 -0400

making progress.

hating life.

Fri, 10 May 2013 23:48:51 -0400

hating life.

making #prints to lay out for the #website

Fri, 10 May 2013 20:58:14 -0400

making #prints to lay out for the #website

#tbt and the actual, final product of the #ducati ad.

Thu, 02 May 2013 14:43:53 -0400

#tbt and the actual, final product of the #ducati ad.

#tbt that time I was a total bad ass on that #ducati ad.

Thu, 02 May 2013 14:34:10 -0400

#tbt that time I was a total bad ass on that #ducati ad.

dad’s new “hair” cut.

Wed, 01 May 2013 16:40:16 -0400

dad’s new “hair” cut.

#coachella #nofilter needed

Tue, 30 Apr 2013 23:24:23 -0400

#coachella #nofilter needed

HEY GUYS.

Mon, 08 Apr 2013 23:05:59 -0400

GUESS WHAT?!

my dad agreed to only buy whole wheat pasta, whole wheat bread, and use olive oil instead of vegetable oil for cooking!

SMALL VICTORIES.

actually LIVING here

Fri, 05 Apr 2013 12:00:27 -0400

is just plain okay. it’s not new york, but i know it’s what i need right now.

i REALLY hate having to rely on driving. more than i can put into words.

this weekend, i worked hardcore on some travel stuff for the upcoming site launch. there is a URL, but i’m not ready to release it yet. lots and lots of work need to be done, and i’m hoping for an early may grand opening.

I’VE ALSO GENERATED AT LEAST 80GB OF NEW CONTENT IN THE LAST MONTH! really excited about that!! (thanks tma + greggo for the push and guidance)

my boyfriend visited and we had a wonderful weekend. he is such a beacon of strength and support. he even helped me sequence my work at 4am on sunday/monday morning! after making me dinner all night with my dad and flying to the other side of the country to see me! i don’t think i’ve ever met a more selfless man in my life.

i think if i knew photography would be this expensive, i might have chosen a different career path - haha. ohhhhh, sigh… not so funny.

included are a few images that will be in the travel (slash maybe lifestyle?) section on the website. i may take out the portraits and put them in a portrait section once i start developing that…

these are the first few that i have in the sequence thus far. if you’d like to give feedback, i’m open to hear it!

hope everyone is enjoying the lovely warm weather :)

progress bars all fucking day. I’m buying more RAM and a...

Mon, 01 Apr 2013 03:46:45 -0400

progress bars all fucking day. I’m buying more RAM and a new hard drive tomorrow.

flowers, day 7.

Thu, 28 Mar 2013 20:03:10 -0400

flowers, day 7.

getting my #jew on. first #passover I’ve had with my...

Mon, 25 Mar 2013 21:46:03 -0400

getting my #jew on. first #passover I’ve had with my father in at least 10 years.

#best #boyfriend #ever

Thu, 21 Mar 2013 14:14:21 -0400

#best #boyfriend #ever

Photo

Wed, 20 Mar 2013 18:42:14 -0400